gettin over

Fine, recently my latest artist addiction has been DAVID GUETTA. For some reason, his party schemes had took me in some party place I can only define as my new utopia. Im no party girl for now and yet DG is making me dance around like crazy.

I just wanna share my latest favorite song. mkay?


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hWjrMTWXH28

OXYGEN

This was the event that I cant remember when
But its certainly a night to remember

For some reason, i cant upload some of the photos here. so feel free to click on the link below to see the photos from the event.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=61594&id=1013656611&l=7959f2e6d5


Hot boys and Girls, Fashion, Booze, Music and Party. Thats How Oxygen does it!

Brain Drain, sorry I cant write anything sensical as of the moment.
So let the looks speak for itself.
Oxygen, fashion!:)

i'll blog about this tomorow, theres something wrong with my net con. bummer.

by Wislawa Szymborska

True love. Is it normal
is it serious, is it practical?
What does the world get from two people
who exist in a world of their own?

Placed on the same pedestal for no good reason,
drawn randomly from millions but convinced
it had to happen this way - in reward for what?
For nothing.
The light descends from nowhere.
Why on these two and not on others?
Doesn't this outrage justice? Yes it does.
Doesn't it disrupt our painstakingly erected principles,
and cast the moral from the peak? Yes on both accounts.

Look at the happy couple.
Couldn't they at least try to hide it,
fake a little depression for their friends' sake?
Listen to them laughing - its an insult.
The language they use - deceptively clear.
And their little celebrations, rituals,
the elaborate mutual routines -
it's obviously a plot behind the human race's back!

It's hard even to guess how far things might go
if people start to follow their example.
What could religion and poetry count on?
What would be remembered? What renounced?
Who'd want to stay within bounds?

True love. Is it really necessary?
Tact and common sense tell us to pass over it in silence,
like a scandal in Life's highest circles.
Perfectly good children are born without its help.
It couldn't populate the planet in a million years,
it comes along so rarely.

Let the people who never find true love
keep saying that there's no such thing.

Their faith will make it easier for them to live and die.

and i thought i was it

you've got me under your spell but spells has their own duration of effectiveness,

mine is wearing off.

im sorry but i cant let myself like you if your the one pushing me away.

it was sudden more than a flash at least

Maybe it was another unfortunate destiny that everyone didn't thought possible,
Not another completed love story.
As tragic as you pet puppy died in your arms and all you can do was cry out to your mom.

It will be the first time I will be writing about this dark art shizle, whatever 'emo' term they might call this.

Death, yes.

with the thunder rolling like crazy, i have forgotten how one flash left me in an awe. More than an after shock or even a maze. (hey sorry for the disorganization of my thoughts)

I actually decided to give up months ago, decided to walk away and just live the life that was supposed to be mine. And yet it seems like the life i ever wanted to live was just too far away that i cannot even see what i have become. going back to death...


I always pictured how I'll die. a red Honda civic 2007 will be rumbling like crazy over me, it might be on some shitty drag race I go to or just a random crossing the street on Shaw boulevard or edsa.
as the red Honda civic 2007 rolls over me, i remember the 19 years of my existence as insignificant as any other beings. Not as great as any God or Politician. Nothing more but always something less.

so from this day forward, i will try to make a mark. (a star) Mark on peoples lives and whatever shit i can do to make 'em remember me.

i'll get back to this blog 0nce i find out how I can do this marking thing.

baring my heart and soul

My friends who have been really close to me, and the friends that had never failed to know whats happening in my life will understand where i am standing right now.

Every single day; i know who i am, i know who I'm supposed to be, who my friends are and who is the person i love.

Now, over and over again I ask myself what is love? then again, i dint know.

He makes me happy, makes me laugh and cry at the same time, makes my knees weak every time he puts his arms around my waist, makes me smile every time he squeezes my hand and makes me feel like i am loved. Its been quite a while since i felt this way honestly.

I just don't understand where i stand now. i cant say i love you because i want you to say it first. I'm afraid that one day, you'll leave.

Leaving my heart and my soul there on the crossroads, unsure of what to feel.

Dilemma? i guess so.

On and On I have been bragging about love and how crazy life is and yet theres more to see than what i have expected.

I didn't know it was really possible to love two people at the same time, I mean romantically. But it will always end up who you love more and who makes you happy. There is no such thing as an equal feeling for two different people.

I saw you today, and as if i have build walls around me for you not to get close to me. As if i wanted time to weight things and figure out what I really feel. Until now I am honestly still hurting so bad every time i see you and knowing everything that had happened. When I am with him, i just feel safe. Emotionally and physically. Its as if we can forget the world and get on with our life.

Dilemma? i guess so.

a letter

for quite a while, i have been trying very hard to supress the feelings I have in my heart. Maybe because I wanted to pretend I dont feel any pain or I just want to forget everything that had happened.

Honestly, it stil hurts and it still breaks my heart that such an unfortunate thing happened to us. But like what I told myself over and over again. We must move forward, it was just another phase we got over with. You told me that as well. But now its something different...

i noticed a change..

Every sunday, i pray for strength to fight. For a chance for us to give this a shot. All I ever ask now is for my heart to heal and to forget all the pain. Wash them away as if it never happened.

the things that happened is done, but we cant take away the fact that it happened.

I wanted to tell you everything

that i feel in my heart

but you know what

from the moment i see you,

i forgot everything..

let us spell Adulthood

There had been too much thats happening for me to remember special events and even people.
When I got home yesterday, I ran and gave my baby brother a tight hug, it seems like I havent seen him for years. I cant even tell if he grew up or i was just too busy to mind.

I miss those days that I have a hold of time and everything in my life, maybe this is really what they call adulthood. Something extremely extravagant and crazy. You see, im currently at work but i chose to write this stupid ass blog to make time pass. My jollibee meal is just digesting and maybe it gave me a little energy to work on something.

Maybe i was trying hard to remain my age as possible as i can be, but 'hello reality!', im in this fast-phased enviroment where the game is called 'pull each other down'; something like not giving other people pass by you or advance a level ahead of you. It is losing for them, though the game is not over yet. The "game" we called back in college was the insane drama we have everytime we had productions but now the game is somewhat serious and many things are layed on the line.

breaks over lovely blog, i must leave you for now. xiao!

stop changing

The queen of reinvention had stike again. If you are my age, you would see her evolution from a little pop star to a global superstar and icon. Many have said that she is recently trying hard to be like Lady Gaga, at some point i totally agree.

you see what i mean?

the battle is on, i think.

friends are always in style

Pauly, Sky and Patrick at Philippine Fashion Week Holiday 2010.
photo credit:Mike Magallanes


Never would i have found such great people with great dreams.
Never would i have found such silly people that can make me escape through reality.
Never would i have found such open people that makes the doors my heart open for change.
Never would i have found such crazy people that makes me act insane.

They are my P's. Patrick and Pauly. Together we make a great team, a good company.

I miss you p's.