inspire

Yes, I have seen sad love stories. I've seen love stories die and be forgotten. I got really scared that the same thing will happen to me. Many of you may know the sad story, its crazy really. Because I am willing to fight though I will be the only one who will do that. I have said to a friend, "fighting for love is a two way street, and i will be fighting two times harder and two times wiser because I really really want to fix this." It was a martyr moment for me. I wanted to tell myself stop but I know my heart will be breaking much more if I will not even try to fight. I mean, it was another slip in the relationship. It was a phase, we'll get through it. I wrote this blog because I actually dont know where to place myself right now, I am still waiting and trying. I pity myself for blaming all the bad things that had happened, when I know there was nothing that I did wrong. The past three years was the best years of my life and I will not ever change the fact that I am in love with someone who grew with me, cried with me, laughed with me, got scared with me and most of all.. fell in love with me. I tried so hard to make this relationship work, not just because of the feelings but because I wanted people to believe in Love that we had made and the love that we faught for. Prince and I saw relationships fell apart and we told ourselves that we will never let that happen to us. Now we are fighting, Fighting through all the pain and the hardships that life had given us. I will give up everything just for us to survive. I will do anything just to buy us hope for a successful love story. Nothing dies, Nothing changes. The love on the start just continues, grows and grow fonder.

It is a crazy roller coaster, another ride that will soon finish. But we can always ride again.

Pls pray for us, pls hope that this love will survive the test of life.